i'm not a strong singer

ya so i had the old yearly check up this week only it was 4 years ago. ya i'm bad. i used to be much better taking care of these things. so i've been feeling very tired that was one of my concerns and i knew i lost some weight but did not know exactly how much because our scale broke a few months back and we have not replaced that bad boy. before you ladies get all jealous don't be. we can't help some things. i'm one of these people who is slight in stature and size. sorry. it's all genetics. i wish i had a little meat on my bones for the times when you get sick and lose a little and say wow i'm glad that happened, but i'm not. when i get sick and lose a little i get worried because i need all i got. anyway, she noted i had lost 4 lbs in 2 months cause i just saw her with a dang blasted kidney infection in august. so then she felt my thyroid and said i need to have it checked out right away. my cardiologist (my heart is fine just a little irregularity i've had for a long time) just ordered some blood work and i thought he ordered a thyroid test so she didn't and he didn't. now i have to have someone maybe her order me up some thyroid tests. so of course now that i know the little thing is there in the front of my throat i have become acutely aware of my swallowing and any sensations in that area like breathing and singing. and i have noticed my singing voice is deeper and it's harder for me to hit the high notes without feeling like i'm straining. doesn't the deeper voice come with the same menopausal territory as mustaches. i don't know, i'm must asking?

at our church the music is so loud you really can't hear yourself sing. i like that. i usually don't hear the person behind me sing so i guess i had a little false confidence today. so at church today during this one song i think i sounded really bad then this very lovely middle aged couple turned around after the song and gave me the o'l i need to see who is sitting behind me look. now i know, how do i know what that was all about. i really don't. but this i do know, it was not because i have the voice of an angel and they were scoping out some new talent for the praise and worship team. really i'm laughing inside. i was dying to just say oh i'm so sorry, i know it sounded bad i'll sing a little softer on the next song. i was just cracking up and still am.

well sisters when i sing, i love the fact that it doesn't matter what i sound like. it's for Him and when it hits His ears i do sound like an angel (and you do to) cause He made my voice just the way He wanted it to sound like.

do you ever think of the planet on a given sabbath whether it be saturday or sunday and the voices all over the world singing praises to our King? singing starts in one time zone and goes to the next, and then to the next encircling the world with praise to Him.

another thought: when we are singing corporately let's say in eastern standard time at 10:00 - 11:30 a.m. if we could hear us all at the same time what it would sound like? i know most of you have attended a LPM conference. haven't you just stopped singing just to hear all the voices? that is an experience like no other isn't it? a little taste of heaven wouldn't you say.